by Arcassin Burnham
1. Held Too Many
To feel the pain at every extent of your life,
its nothing new to this game we play or a level of polite,
this was always war in some of our eyes and even gods too,
bringing destruction to countries that don't even need dictating stools,
while we run around and do dumb shit for the amusement of seeing no rules,
so laws can be enforced on us but its too complicated to prove,
thinking back and growing up with issues,
with more problems of being sat on like a church pew,
praise his name in light for better virtues,
we're all dogs on a leash with a bowl of social media to try to get us
through,
but thats not life and this ain't life either....
*held up*,
*so many*,
*different*,
*problems*,
*i can't hide anymore*..
*caught up*,
*in the*,
*wrong things*,
*when i*,
*walk out of the door*..
*you could get a piece of my presence*,
*looking to the sky*,*heaven knows i learned my lesson*,
*But i gotta stay in between the lines unless i wanna be saved*
*i know whats in store*...
A soul like you couldn't grow up in a world this cruel..
A soul like you could be more precious more than beauty its self..
A soul like you couldn't be more *lovelier than ever*..
A soul like you could carry me to new places..
*held up*,
*so many*,
*different*,
*problems*,
*i can't hide anymore*..
*caught up*,
*in the*,
*wrong things*,
*when i*,
*walk out of the door*..
*you could get a piece of my presence*,
*looking to the sky*,*heaven knows i learned my lesson*,
*But i gotta stay in between the lines unless i wanna be saved*
*i know whats in store*.
2. The Devil's Nectar
Take the shot,
please don't blow it,
unless i lose it,
I'll never know it,
feeling like i'm ten feet below,
on the slippery slope , to what hell has to offer,
i'm glad that you know,
the things that we cherish, we lose,
i know that this life isn't proper,
Take a shot,
i command you,
but i don't wanna,
swear i can't stand you,
lord please just take the wheel tonight,
no more promises to fight , if you promise me we would stay
up all night,
stranger than a twilight,
trash is another mans treasure,
find it on sight,
thinking how long have i been in this condition besting all my other personalities of when i'm drunk infesting way too many signs of intoxication in ways that i would think is not good for the human brain,
if not then i don't act the same,
With life struggles you can erase,
work hard to replace the things that have been impacting all of us,
but the last of us don't need to say a thing,
locked up and get life in jail or don't really better yourself at all,
like dominoes , one day it'll be your turn to fall,
please don't let the serpent win , but you just wanna hang out with the boys,
please don't let the serpent win , but you just wanna get high with the boys,
please don't let serpent win , but you just wanna commit a crime with the boys,
oh look! the serpent at the finish line and its on you,
my boy that was your choice,
Take the shot,
please don't blow it,
unless i lose it,
I'll never know it,
feeling like i'm ten feet below,
on the slippery slope , to what hell has to offer,
i'm glad that you know,
the things that we cherish, we lose,
i know that this life isn't proper.
3. Minding You
*Look at those eyes in the beautiful mirror*,
*i was always the outcast so I find it hard to believe that i'm beautiful*...
*But i'm not minding you*,
*it was often that I've seen you walking down the hall*,
*and I've been wanted to approach you baby*,
*But i'm not minding you*,
She could make my heart
skip beats more than twenty-three times,
it was more than just her looks,
she a good girl, i see it in her eyes,
and when we don't talk,
there's a feeling that i just can't deny,
and all this built up animosity to knowing her,
and her leaving me to dry,
Well go and mind your business girl, *cause i'm not minding you*,
*for the pain that i went through and the help that i thought you'd give*
*but you didn't*
*so damn tired of all these feelings that i had towards you in love*,
*so damn tired of all these feelings that i had towards you in love*,
*it just wasn't given*..
*aside from me having my bad days i at least thought we were friends*
*in the beginning*..
*i had my doubts that you weren't going to be loyal at all*,
*i should have seen it coming*,
*As I Write these lines*,
*i just wanted to spend some time*, *with you*...
*But i'm not minding you*.
4. Spiritual Affliction
If you're reading this.
please help me fight the demons deep in my dreams,
People get through this all the time,
so this shouldn't ever really be new to me,
slowly clarifying the next victim due to harsh symptoms in a dark
room where you can't even move,
might have committed sins that you'd didn't know that you'd ever do,
is there bad juju in every direction?
afraid to step outside without getting arrested,
i'm not crossing any lines anytime soon as a part of way to be
free with no session,
learning lessons in some full disclosure like a real man that gets
the job done,
done a lot of things in my life i wasn't proud of walking in a loop
of a beautiful garden but its endless hell with a single phone booth not knowing
damn well a demon just answered,
he says come back and take me some pictures,
i said hell no,
you will let go of my soul,
its the Christ's hands i wanna hold,
shine like the nova i am , well behold..
5. Spike
If you could hear the voice in the sky that talks
when the rain has fallen and the sun shines down having dried its eyes
weeping for the animals that struggle with no home and left astray in
a world just like a homeless person,
the plot worsens,
wagging tails and hypertension with a joy no one has ever felt
while simply bringing problems back home you could just not control,
believing in the fate of faith that'll hold us close and never let us go,
for unfortunate and the fallen heroes to know that your life isn't perfect,
Steadily finding freedom is a must in this symbolic system unless
your consciously aware of the things that you've heard and the things you've seen and
the things you possess,
I'm looking at it as a real free man , but i'm not impressed,
this shit isn't life , we've lost some of the best,
and forgot the rest while they only see a fatal end drowning in darkness ,
i hope i'm whole in heaven and not a tore up carcass,
but i think i'm far from this when life hands me a test,
there's still breath in your chest,
yes you've been on a quest,
do not fight with the jest,
in your life there is stress,
but yes you can be blessed,
at ease in bird nests,
as you go on in life,
you get through the pain and then you could rest.
6. Past Loves
Let down , stepped on , *looking at the wrong side of the road*..
forgotten , missing, *but they're hearts are still so cold*..
*seeing problems while the soul is searching*,
*making sacrifices on my way and learning*,
*i know*,
They were , so wrong , *leaving me all alone on my own*,
*it always happens almost like a curse*,
*it doesn't get better*,*it just gets worse*,
*and i*,
Watched them , walk out, *wasn't hard for me to look anymore*,
i'm trying not to think about you...
i'm trying not to think about you...
i'm trying not to think about you,
just a simple kind of love is what i need,
i just want somebody that'll stay with me, its not fair..
why do i care..
Let down , stepped on , *looking at the wrong side of the road*..
forgotten , missing, *but they're hearts are still so cold*..
*seeing problems while the soul is searching*,
*making sacrifices on my way and learning*,
*i know*,
They were , so wrong , *leaving me all alone on my own*.
7. Fine Wine
Immune To the grasp of the sword but it manage to get some cuts in,
all jokes aside for the killers that ride every day for an unnecessary purposes,
bills to pay when knowing your worth in a system that'll over exploit and do the
most,
its just not even worth it,
look for the people that live a box and they'll tell you what real life's worth is,
don't you give into the serpent,
that roams around the earth and pulls curtains,
that leaves dead spirits in your house , leave your mind in a drought and try to
resurface,
From The powers within and a strength from a country that don't really care about
us,
Therefore , the love and the freedoms diminished in the population where we
have the right to trust...
Man its common sense,
the truth is heaven sent,
everything is evident,
they laugh behind the scenes while drinking fine wine,
leading distortion and corruption like the dickens in a hell pit,
its common sense,
let me say it again,
Man its common sense,
the truth is heaven sent,
everything is evident,
they laugh behind the scenes while drinking fine wine,
leading distortion and corruption like the dickens in a hell pit,
Man its common sense.
8. Better Keep Me (Interlude)
*He told me you were beautiful*,
*he told me you had everything*,
*that i would like and even more*,
*predicting futures more like wedding rings*,
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*And have nothing more to give*,
*to anyone else*,
*You better keep me happy while i'm investing my time into you*...
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*And have nothing more to give*,
*to anyone else*,
*You better keep me happy while i'm investing my time into you*.
9. Look How They Flow
Left with past reminders like should i go back to the moment
when everyone was civilized?
The butterfly effect had nothing on the causes and tragedies
that opened up the peoples eyes,
choose better friends , keep your enemies closer than two mountains
slouching in the Himalayas,
like a stone brick wall filled with dead bodies even towards the top
where the satanists will dead hate ya,
stealing and killing is a motto for the young people that see chaos
in a troubled child's eyes,
Problems create problems in society when the people that we care
about the most tell us lies,
we're leaning towards the end of the road with a new set of toys and
the propaganda just grows stronger,
what happen to the unity and peace and the freedom of speech when
the troubles in the world gets darker,
As The waves crash down , i could see the future of a new age,
the children that'll grow up in a good home of good people and will
never take a break,
that will have all the teachings and serving the god that they praise,
we're all gonna die anyway , we're all gonna die anyway,
until we see the pearly gates.
10. Pretending To Have A Good Home
Just strolling along , just standing in place , i would,
show you more than what really happens in this place if i could,
skies are getting dark and grey , as it persuades , message,
if anything nobody listens to me so i pillage,
i could still see the stars , like its apart of my life,
i wish to find a stunning gorgeous guardian of a wife,
long hair to the back , isn't that a fact , i could make,
everybody wish they had a soulmate on an interstate,
Pretending i have a good home to come to , while thinking,
it was all a hoax that i provoked , this ship is sinking,
having life situations bore me , so i did,
the most responsible thing in the world , the choice that i picked.
11. Way Too Early
We leave,
without a goodbye or a sayonara..
The future,
and every promise that we made is gone in the wind,
Some Trust,
the spirits they crave but it never comes through,
The Last Bit,
Of people wondered when their hearts will ever get saved,
and i'm one of them,
its way too early for the bullshit,
the sunlight shines in my eyes,
i swear on life i wanna just quit,
i stopped trading blows for this disguise,
And all my life I've tried to quit,
five other times I've tried to end it,
I know that i'm not good enough,
for the rapture all the way to the end of a brand new.
12. Right Place
Seeing darker days like lonely nights and raw fists fights and chaos
happen all in one day and at a time,
We were vulnerable with less money to spend and dine ourselves to
perfect things that would've made it alright,
What is the right place to us?
My Ex was a succubus,
i swear anytime i could have made it out..
My mom would lock me away,
because of thoughts and anger issues,
but she didn't talk to me , she just doubts..
Remembering my grandpa had a stroke in front of me and i couldn't
do anything in that situation,
And then one night my step grandpa was on the brink of death with
so any tubes in his mouth , i was in devastation..
so,
tell me what is the right place...
hmm,
maybe in heaven we're safe..
can you tell me?
please tell me,
What is the right place to us?
My Ex was a succubus,
i swear anytime i could have made it out..
My mom would lock me away,
because of thoughts and anger issues,
but she didn't talk to me , she just doubts..
13. Riverside Dreaming (interlude 2)
Forgive and forget a past with limits,
Reputation still ruined like good riddens,
I Remember riding all the way to the end,
on a bike that somebody sold , i won't mention,
Suicidal thought and more to pretend,
a group of friends that don't care about my new sin,
a bunch of envies all at school with no help,
i'm going crazy now like this is the end,
*and all i do is think of you*,
*and all i do is think of you*,
*and all i do is think of you*,
*all i do is think of you*.
14. Broken Town
Bad memories will haunt me til the day i lay around other graves,
With my initials carved on it , that was always the trade,
That was marked on me since the day my mother gave me my name,
i hope while i'm in death brings me close to god's warm embrace,
Like why i gotta live so with many hateful humans?
Like why i gotta be in guilt for the devil's amusement?
Its hard to comprehend what kind of future i'm getting,
I don't want no more of those fatty foods or the fear of me sinning,
i won't have to lie , cause i have nothing to hide,
Don't know what my future holds , But i'm not wasting time,
There was always no way to find love in this broken town,
it'll burn itself to the ground , that's even if i'm still around,
i don't know what you want from me..
But i am not in your company..
Enforce the power of hate on me..
But i don't give shit, dig a grave for me.
15. Spike ll
Ooo the smart remarks poeple makes when
they say they never wanted kids,
Ooo the attention to detail when everything
falls into place kid,
You follow your dreams and shit happens well
at least i had to hear from teachers and counselors,
Like Don't You Fucking See That I Struggle To Get Where I Am?!!
be the proudest,
but instead you just doubt,
so later on , i'm walking out,
to show you that i'm not putting up with it,
You don't know what human compassion is,
Just living off savagery and communists,
be like whats the jist? can you give us a hint in the line of the lust,
when temptation wins, And we're at our end,
i got ya , got ya,
i wasn't really sent here,
got ya , got ya,
for the times that i spent here,
got ya , got ya,
now my time has to end here,
don't you leave my friend , you just got here,
now i'm alone.
16. That Was Close
See The moon up-close for the first in a long time,
maybe its true,
stalking stars at night looking for a greater purpose,
but ya know you're just a bug-a-boo,
even be-fore,
all,
the pain,
that took place , i know,
where everybody goes when they die,
saying that was a close one boss,
please don't let your soul get lost,
this is too much , you can't take another loss,
can't see your hopes and dreams get tossed by a cost,
your body feels like electric power plants,
surging through just trying to make a mends,
it'll be a challenge if you take a stand,
but this all goes out to the humble men,
Thinking of becoming what you want to be,
theres no escape in the ways of the economy,
if you think i wasn't troublesome i outta be,
while god is watching over me,
and a, make sure that you don't be anybody's bitch,
no income , stuck in ditch,
we have to make our own damn businesses,
shout out to the very wealthy citizens...
See The moon up-close for the first in a long time,
maybe its true,
stalking stars at night looking for a greater purpose,
but ya know you're just a bug-a-boo,
even be-fore,
all,
the pain,
that took place , i know,
where everybody goes when they die.
17. Over Love
i'm so done with you,
and your egotistic luvby-duvby mushy ways cramming into
my head every time i see a beautiful damsel,
thats soul is probably damned so...
i'm so done with you,
making me jealous at every turn to see a man kiss his wife or
girlfriend in all the times of the school hallways,
i didn't need you anyway...
i'm so done with you,
for handing me the wrong girls to take out and make feel special
when their lives were hell to began with,
i guess they were hell sent...
i'm so done with you,
for making me believe that i could be the perfect guy for anyone
mixing love and lust at times when hormones get rattled,
watch the feeling as it scatters....
*i adored you*,
*i adored you*,
*but you lied*..
*i adored you*,
*i adored you*,
*but you lied*,
18. Country Air
*Angels wanna breathe country air too*,
*He says they will become bullet proof*,
*From any evils that try to intrude*,
*You better keep a bible next to you*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*...
*Southern voices speak louder than any accent*,
*This Florida weather is hot like acid*,
*saddling up chum , yeah thats it*,
*looking for a sip of alcohol but just a lil bit*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*..
*not out here*..
*Thinking like 8 years back*,
*Didn't know i was gonna back track*,
*Just to feel the heat of the night on my back*,
*Like stabbing greasy pours with a thumbtack*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*..
*not out here*..
*All they wanna do is smell the country air*,
*But it just seems to move away*,
*Beautiful heaven-like landscapes stare*,
*The lord himself would agree anyway*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*..
*not out here*.
19. Spike lll
My best friend,
And my brother,
never ceased to amaze at all,
if anything,
he watches over me,
i can't erase memories at all,
and i got chance to show him that i would do better on this earth even today,
just making plans like everybody does for the future learning all the things that
wouldn't take it away,
My best friend,
he loves me,
just like he loved daddy too,
if anything,
they both died,
just to see me happy with my own kids too,
more wiser than ever just to know who cares and who doesn't, i won't be offended at all,
company will always bring misery in every corner of the world and it won't stall...
...*My best friend*,
*And my brother*,
*never ceased to amaze at all*,
*if anything*,
*he watches over me*,
*i can't erase memories at all,
*if i could start again*,
*and put everything back in place*,
*to see them both in heaven*,
*there is no better place*.
20. The End To A Chapter Book
...Now As We End A Legacy
Predicting we will have brand new things coming our way commencing in a world where poverty is so fucking annoying that it would be impossible to save everybody,
Don't look at me when the autopsy investigates your body,
Elongated relationships that don't last or get corrupted by other people
that are commonly known as home wreckers making their husbands and their wives cheat on them and drown em in sin which is adultery,
thats why i don't trust anybody with my heart and my mind and my soul,
Is there still racism in the world? that should have been old,
ignore them , please don't give in to the demons or the devil or the supernatural , or evil people ,
or untrustworthy human beings , or anything that isn't a human unless its kind and nurturing,
But now-a-days its hard to tell who is actually struggling,
Life is not as hard as you think , if you were thinking,
but you give in too much,
you put your trust in society's hands and look what they did with it,
they just smashed it into little pieces,
Big enough so you could see it,
Freedom ain't free even if you got out of jail for being alcohol inducing,
in a struggling economy,
where blacks get most of the bullshit for being born free,
Now you tell me, Are We Really Free?
Rising to the occasion to make it in society,
planning to have a house of my own and become vegan eventually,
To get more than one job to benefit me,
so when i bring a child into this world, he or she will live comfortably,
Life is only as hard as you make it seem to be,
But Life is actually quite easy.
God Bless.
weeping for the animals that struggle with no home and left astray in
a world just like a homeless person,
the plot worsens,
wagging tails and hypertension with a joy no one has ever felt
while simply bringing problems back home you could just not control,
believing in the fate of faith that'll hold us close and never let us go,
for unfortunate and the fallen heroes to know that your life isn't perfect,
Steadily finding freedom is a must in this symbolic system unless
your consciously aware of the things that you've heard and the things you've seen and
the things you possess,
I'm looking at it as a real free man , but i'm not impressed,
this shit isn't life , we've lost some of the best,
and forgot the rest while they only see a fatal end drowning in darkness ,
i hope i'm whole in heaven and not a tore up carcass,
but i think i'm far from this when life hands me a test,
there's still breath in your chest,
yes you've been on a quest,
do not fight with the jest,
in your life there is stress,
but yes you can be blessed,
at ease in bird nests,
as you go on in life,
you get through the pain and then you could rest.
6. Past Loves
Let down , stepped on , *looking at the wrong side of the road*..
forgotten , missing, *but they're hearts are still so cold*..
*seeing problems while the soul is searching*,
*making sacrifices on my way and learning*,
*i know*,
They were , so wrong , *leaving me all alone on my own*,
*it always happens almost like a curse*,
*it doesn't get better*,*it just gets worse*,
*and i*,
Watched them , walk out, *wasn't hard for me to look anymore*,
i'm trying not to think about you...
i'm trying not to think about you...
i'm trying not to think about you,
just a simple kind of love is what i need,
i just want somebody that'll stay with me, its not fair..
why do i care..
Let down , stepped on , *looking at the wrong side of the road*..
forgotten , missing, *but they're hearts are still so cold*..
*seeing problems while the soul is searching*,
*making sacrifices on my way and learning*,
*i know*,
They were , so wrong , *leaving me all alone on my own*.
7. Fine Wine
Immune To the grasp of the sword but it manage to get some cuts in,
all jokes aside for the killers that ride every day for an unnecessary purposes,
bills to pay when knowing your worth in a system that'll over exploit and do the
most,
its just not even worth it,
look for the people that live a box and they'll tell you what real life's worth is,
don't you give into the serpent,
that roams around the earth and pulls curtains,
that leaves dead spirits in your house , leave your mind in a drought and try to
resurface,
From The powers within and a strength from a country that don't really care about
us,
Therefore , the love and the freedoms diminished in the population where we
have the right to trust...
Man its common sense,
the truth is heaven sent,
everything is evident,
they laugh behind the scenes while drinking fine wine,
leading distortion and corruption like the dickens in a hell pit,
its common sense,
let me say it again,
Man its common sense,
the truth is heaven sent,
everything is evident,
they laugh behind the scenes while drinking fine wine,
leading distortion and corruption like the dickens in a hell pit,
Man its common sense.
8. Better Keep Me (Interlude)
*He told me you were beautiful*,
*he told me you had everything*,
*that i would like and even more*,
*predicting futures more like wedding rings*,
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*And have nothing more to give*,
*to anyone else*,
*You better keep me happy while i'm investing my time into you*...
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*and i*,
*would like*,
*to see*,
*you*,
*And have nothing more to give*,
*to anyone else*,
*You better keep me happy while i'm investing my time into you*.
9. Look How They Flow
Left with past reminders like should i go back to the moment
when everyone was civilized?
The butterfly effect had nothing on the causes and tragedies
that opened up the peoples eyes,
choose better friends , keep your enemies closer than two mountains
slouching in the Himalayas,
like a stone brick wall filled with dead bodies even towards the top
where the satanists will dead hate ya,
stealing and killing is a motto for the young people that see chaos
in a troubled child's eyes,
Problems create problems in society when the people that we care
about the most tell us lies,
we're leaning towards the end of the road with a new set of toys and
the propaganda just grows stronger,
what happen to the unity and peace and the freedom of speech when
the troubles in the world gets darker,
As The waves crash down , i could see the future of a new age,
the children that'll grow up in a good home of good people and will
never take a break,
that will have all the teachings and serving the god that they praise,
we're all gonna die anyway , we're all gonna die anyway,
until we see the pearly gates.
10. Pretending To Have A Good Home
Just strolling along , just standing in place , i would,
show you more than what really happens in this place if i could,
skies are getting dark and grey , as it persuades , message,
if anything nobody listens to me so i pillage,
i could still see the stars , like its apart of my life,
i wish to find a stunning gorgeous guardian of a wife,
long hair to the back , isn't that a fact , i could make,
everybody wish they had a soulmate on an interstate,
Pretending i have a good home to come to , while thinking,
it was all a hoax that i provoked , this ship is sinking,
having life situations bore me , so i did,
the most responsible thing in the world , the choice that i picked.
11. Way Too Early
We leave,
without a goodbye or a sayonara..
The future,
and every promise that we made is gone in the wind,
Some Trust,
the spirits they crave but it never comes through,
The Last Bit,
Of people wondered when their hearts will ever get saved,
and i'm one of them,
its way too early for the bullshit,
the sunlight shines in my eyes,
i swear on life i wanna just quit,
i stopped trading blows for this disguise,
And all my life I've tried to quit,
five other times I've tried to end it,
I know that i'm not good enough,
for the rapture all the way to the end of a brand new.
12. Right Place
Seeing darker days like lonely nights and raw fists fights and chaos
happen all in one day and at a time,
We were vulnerable with less money to spend and dine ourselves to
perfect things that would've made it alright,
What is the right place to us?
My Ex was a succubus,
i swear anytime i could have made it out..
My mom would lock me away,
because of thoughts and anger issues,
but she didn't talk to me , she just doubts..
Remembering my grandpa had a stroke in front of me and i couldn't
do anything in that situation,
And then one night my step grandpa was on the brink of death with
so any tubes in his mouth , i was in devastation..
so,
tell me what is the right place...
hmm,
maybe in heaven we're safe..
can you tell me?
please tell me,
What is the right place to us?
My Ex was a succubus,
i swear anytime i could have made it out..
My mom would lock me away,
because of thoughts and anger issues,
but she didn't talk to me , she just doubts..
13. Riverside Dreaming (interlude 2)
Forgive and forget a past with limits,
Reputation still ruined like good riddens,
I Remember riding all the way to the end,
on a bike that somebody sold , i won't mention,
Suicidal thought and more to pretend,
a group of friends that don't care about my new sin,
a bunch of envies all at school with no help,
i'm going crazy now like this is the end,
*and all i do is think of you*,
*and all i do is think of you*,
*and all i do is think of you*,
*all i do is think of you*.
14. Broken Town
Bad memories will haunt me til the day i lay around other graves,
With my initials carved on it , that was always the trade,
That was marked on me since the day my mother gave me my name,
i hope while i'm in death brings me close to god's warm embrace,
Like why i gotta live so with many hateful humans?
Like why i gotta be in guilt for the devil's amusement?
Its hard to comprehend what kind of future i'm getting,
I don't want no more of those fatty foods or the fear of me sinning,
i won't have to lie , cause i have nothing to hide,
Don't know what my future holds , But i'm not wasting time,
There was always no way to find love in this broken town,
it'll burn itself to the ground , that's even if i'm still around,
i don't know what you want from me..
But i am not in your company..
Enforce the power of hate on me..
But i don't give shit, dig a grave for me.
15. Spike ll
Ooo the smart remarks poeple makes when
they say they never wanted kids,
Ooo the attention to detail when everything
falls into place kid,
You follow your dreams and shit happens well
at least i had to hear from teachers and counselors,
Like Don't You Fucking See That I Struggle To Get Where I Am?!!
be the proudest,
but instead you just doubt,
so later on , i'm walking out,
to show you that i'm not putting up with it,
You don't know what human compassion is,
Just living off savagery and communists,
be like whats the jist? can you give us a hint in the line of the lust,
when temptation wins, And we're at our end,
i got ya , got ya,
i wasn't really sent here,
got ya , got ya,
for the times that i spent here,
got ya , got ya,
now my time has to end here,
don't you leave my friend , you just got here,
now i'm alone.
16. That Was Close
See The moon up-close for the first in a long time,
maybe its true,
stalking stars at night looking for a greater purpose,
but ya know you're just a bug-a-boo,
even be-fore,
all,
the pain,
that took place , i know,
where everybody goes when they die,
saying that was a close one boss,
please don't let your soul get lost,
this is too much , you can't take another loss,
can't see your hopes and dreams get tossed by a cost,
your body feels like electric power plants,
surging through just trying to make a mends,
it'll be a challenge if you take a stand,
but this all goes out to the humble men,
Thinking of becoming what you want to be,
theres no escape in the ways of the economy,
if you think i wasn't troublesome i outta be,
while god is watching over me,
and a, make sure that you don't be anybody's bitch,
no income , stuck in ditch,
we have to make our own damn businesses,
shout out to the very wealthy citizens...
See The moon up-close for the first in a long time,
maybe its true,
stalking stars at night looking for a greater purpose,
but ya know you're just a bug-a-boo,
even be-fore,
all,
the pain,
that took place , i know,
where everybody goes when they die.
17. Over Love
i'm so done with you,
and your egotistic luvby-duvby mushy ways cramming into
my head every time i see a beautiful damsel,
thats soul is probably damned so...
i'm so done with you,
making me jealous at every turn to see a man kiss his wife or
girlfriend in all the times of the school hallways,
i didn't need you anyway...
i'm so done with you,
for handing me the wrong girls to take out and make feel special
when their lives were hell to began with,
i guess they were hell sent...
i'm so done with you,
for making me believe that i could be the perfect guy for anyone
mixing love and lust at times when hormones get rattled,
watch the feeling as it scatters....
*i adored you*,
*i adored you*,
*but you lied*..
*i adored you*,
*i adored you*,
*but you lied*,
18. Country Air
*Angels wanna breathe country air too*,
*He says they will become bullet proof*,
*From any evils that try to intrude*,
*You better keep a bible next to you*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*...
*Southern voices speak louder than any accent*,
*This Florida weather is hot like acid*,
*saddling up chum , yeah thats it*,
*looking for a sip of alcohol but just a lil bit*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*..
*not out here*..
*Thinking like 8 years back*,
*Didn't know i was gonna back track*,
*Just to feel the heat of the night on my back*,
*Like stabbing greasy pours with a thumbtack*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*..
*not out here*..
*All they wanna do is smell the country air*,
*But it just seems to move away*,
*Beautiful heaven-like landscapes stare*,
*The lord himself would agree anyway*,
*The country roads won't do you wrong*..
*not out here*.
19. Spike lll
My best friend,
And my brother,
never ceased to amaze at all,
if anything,
he watches over me,
i can't erase memories at all,
and i got chance to show him that i would do better on this earth even today,
just making plans like everybody does for the future learning all the things that
wouldn't take it away,
My best friend,
he loves me,
just like he loved daddy too,
if anything,
they both died,
just to see me happy with my own kids too,
more wiser than ever just to know who cares and who doesn't, i won't be offended at all,
company will always bring misery in every corner of the world and it won't stall...
...*My best friend*,
*And my brother*,
*never ceased to amaze at all*,
*if anything*,
*he watches over me*,
*i can't erase memories at all,
*if i could start again*,
*and put everything back in place*,
*to see them both in heaven*,
*there is no better place*.
20. The End To A Chapter Book
...Now As We End A Legacy
Predicting we will have brand new things coming our way commencing in a world where poverty is so fucking annoying that it would be impossible to save everybody,
Don't look at me when the autopsy investigates your body,
Elongated relationships that don't last or get corrupted by other people
that are commonly known as home wreckers making their husbands and their wives cheat on them and drown em in sin which is adultery,
thats why i don't trust anybody with my heart and my mind and my soul,
Is there still racism in the world? that should have been old,
ignore them , please don't give in to the demons or the devil or the supernatural , or evil people ,
or untrustworthy human beings , or anything that isn't a human unless its kind and nurturing,
But now-a-days its hard to tell who is actually struggling,
Life is not as hard as you think , if you were thinking,
but you give in too much,
you put your trust in society's hands and look what they did with it,
they just smashed it into little pieces,
Big enough so you could see it,
Freedom ain't free even if you got out of jail for being alcohol inducing,
in a struggling economy,
where blacks get most of the bullshit for being born free,
Now you tell me, Are We Really Free?
Rising to the occasion to make it in society,
planning to have a house of my own and become vegan eventually,
To get more than one job to benefit me,
so when i bring a child into this world, he or she will live comfortably,
Life is only as hard as you make it seem to be,
But Life is actually quite easy.
God Bless.
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21. Epilogue
Hi , My is Arcassin Marzane Richard Burnham otherwise known
as ABPoetry,
A boy born from Bunnell , Florida in a part where it looks like Kentucky,
A Boy that has face the hard aches and struggles throughout life with limitations as big as the Eiffel Tower,
That faces mental issues as if they're like visits from a deep hell hole,
That only depends on the current family members hes known all his life In a struggling economy that fucks up on its own,
Has enemies that bullied him , that he doesn't really see anymore but is on his guard everyday,
To try to become a better person and keep the demons at bay,
sleep paralysis , misophonia , and anxiety all in one,
showing weakness is the epitome to a black mans son,
but he never did have a father in this messed up war zone,
Nor is he weak , but only couple of tweaks,
Hoping that every morning he wakes up he'll make it through the week,
Seeing these kids on social media and in the actual , doing too much to gain recognition,
Teen moms running around and their baby fathers don't need a mention,
getting into fights with other people because of egos,
filming it so that the whole internet knows,
I know your mother told you she raised you better than that once or twice in your life but she got problems of her own that she dealt with before she was grown,
A lost generation that runs around and steals things and have a savage nature,
especially our culture , we should know better than to give other races a reason to say we're violent,
But I'm not a teacher , i'm just someone no one gives a fuck about and even though i try to get through to somebody it always goes in one ear and out the other again and again,
Also stuck in a generation where ignorant people won't listen to reason,
To do the things you do , like whats the reason?
Life is so much simpler than we make it out to be,
And if anything i just wanna be free,
no more fake people , no more bullshit,
Just me , my wife , and two daughters on a beach,
Being free thinkers and waiting for heaven to get us to live out our lives before the teaches.
22. Solid Heart
Pick ya head up boy it's okay now , the eternal struggle is over so be proud,
What you ask for is what you get in life, to climb off the mountain,
gotta find your way down,
Looking for new purposes to fill your voids,
Knowing that in each time it comes with toys,
Life ain't about getting , its about giving but the generations lost in the chaos,
Got the kids in the school in the books on the way to college , But you so worried about
a wrist watch and material things that don't mean anything at all,
Now Let me say this,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
*please don't be a follower*,
*Be a leader*,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
*crazy is what crazy does*,
*this world is still and was*,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
*please don't be a follower*,
*Be a leader*,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
*crazy is what crazy does*,
*this world is still and was*...
*i know what you're feeling*, *i've been there before*,
*there is no way to cure this*,*the pain just grows much larger*,
*if you feel like people don't want you around*,
*grow to learn more things*,
*i know it could get much harder*....
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
*please don't be a follower*,
*Be a leader*,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
*crazy is what crazy does*,
*this world is still and was*,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
*please don't be a follower*,
*Be a leader*,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
*crazy is what crazy does*,
*this world is still and was*...
Pay attention in school and do everything you have to do just so you could get out,
You'll have problems along the way and everything that you do , people will doubt,
but don't mind them,
Follow your dreams,
And free think along the way in any age,
i'm not just speaking to kids ,
But i'm also speaking to the human race.
23. Little Mistake (Got It For You)
Surfing Throughout the corners of a mind i think is corrupted, You won't find your tears here in this hell while life is instructed,
Bean spilling about your uncle , your mother , your father , your baby cousin,
I got a secret for you..
Teenage lovers , watch them fade and see what they had once before,
Under covers , thinking back when sex was good , not anymore,
Losing sparks and see them fly into someone elses vicinity,
i got a secret for you..
When people label you as something that you never thought you would be,
Looking for a piece of positivity and empathy,
I could make you see how wonderous life could truly speak,
i got a secret for you..
Stars shine , but not only for them for he leaves no one out at all,
Can't lose your composure cause you wouldn't be able to bare it all,
look for purpose in life and prepare for a new fall,
i got a secret for you..
Sing a different song to a new beginning,
i was on my own but wasn't done with sinning,
In my heart i know i am truly winning,
all these bad thoughts haunt like whoelse is thinking,
i could,
be your,
everything,
but not your little mistake,
i will not make that mistake,
i could,
be your,
everything,
but not your little mistake,
i will not make that mistake....
Staying away from all the bull from what you think is fun and better,
Heaven makes a stone cold blind man see weather,
i'm not in your line of ignorance , i know i could do better but,
i got a secret for you..
Breathing in the devils musk and make fuss about this life,
Making decisions that you know is wrong but you do it right,
Scuffing down your fathers alcohol bottles with some ice,
i got a secret for you..
Bound to drinking and shooting up but you know thats not the way,
Because of a family that doesn't understand you and your phase,
planning to leave and never come back was in the mind anyway,
i got a secret for you..
Know you worth cause isn't hard in this wicked world to start,
Guard your brain , guard you heart , guard your soul don't drift apart,
but there was something you always had to embark,
That God Loves you , take your life back,
Right Nows the time to start,
Sing a different song to a new beginning,
i was on my own but wasn't done with sinning,
In my heart i know i am truly winning,
all these bad thoughts haunt like whoelse is thinking,
i could,
be your,
everything,
but not your little mistake,
i will not make that mistake,
i could,
be your,
everything,
but not your little mistake,
i will not make that mistake.
"Now ...... On To The Future".
- Arcassin Burnham
r.i.p Rap Davis (Dad and step granddad) & Spikie (Our Dog)
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